A few years later, we drove to Tennessee to go Indoor Skydiving. Me, Zac, Aubrey and Kearstin, clothed in giant flight suits, and blowing around uncontrolled in a 50 ft. vertical wind tunnel while my husband and Caymen watched through a window, once again causing me to question my decision making skills when it comes to responsible parenting. Afterward, Zac said to me, "Will you go real skydiving with me when I'm old enough?" Kinda like my glance back toward the top on that crane, it seemed so far away, and I said, "Yep."
We were originally scheduled for May 15th, showed up to find out that it was too windy and had to be rescheduled. We'd already driven down there, so we hung out for bit and got to know a couple of the guys who introduced themselves and made us feel very comfortable. One was Pags, a jokester who was funny and entertaining. The other was Monkey, which coincidentally, has always been our nickname for Caymen. Skydiving Monkey was the lead instructor and immediately put my mind at ease. I left there that day feeling a little better, but spent the next 2 weeks studying YouTube videos of tandem skydives to try to prepare myself. I could have saved myself a lot of time, because there is really no way to prepare yourself for jumping out of an airplane at 13,000 ft.
The thought that kept me up at night was the moment I would be standing at the open door of the safe airplane before diving out into nothing and I pictured myself as the new sponsor for Red Bull with their logo on my back, because clearly, I was about to rival the record of the guy who dove from space. And when I was watching The Today Show the day Matt Lauer was at the top of the new World Trade Center building as the camera spanned around the view and I got dizzy from the safety of my couch, I thought, this can't be good.
But 2 things had me committed to going through with this. No refunds. And that boy of mine. Then God sealed the deal with a song on the radio that became my Skydive-Hug-From-God.
(Link will be at the bottom of this post.) That's when I knew, God was going to rock my world again...and who knows what that could possibly mean when it comes to skydiving...
Yesterday was the big day. School is out, so we took Kearstin and Caymen to watch us fall from the sky, because by now you know there's no hope for our parenting skills.
Before we knew what was happening, we were ascending into the sky in the plane. I turned to Monkey and said, "Are we almost to the top?" and he said, "Oh, no. We've still got 9,000 more ft. to go."
Hey, Monkey. A simple Yep would suffice. Where are your parenting skills?
Pags and Monkey were amazing and both knew exactly what we each needed. Pags kept Zac at ease with jokes and laughter. Monkey spoke softly into my ear words of reassurance while he checked, double checked and triple checked my harnesses for my benefit, not his. And then he said, "Now stop thinking and enjoy the ride."
My original plan was that I would exit the plane first, because there's no way a mother should ever be put in the position to watch her son jump out of an airplane. But Monkey threw a wrench in that by deciding we needed to go last. Something about wind conditions, Zac's small size vs my not small size, not colliding, blah blah blah.
Pags and Zac approached the side of the plane...and disappeared...
That's when I made a deal with Monkey. "Tell me when my boy's chute opens and I'll stop thinking and enjoy the ride."
When Monkey said, "He's clear" I felt a calm wash over me that can only be described as coming from the Prince Of Peace, Himself. My boy was safe and my Jesus was either going to land me safely too, or He was going to carry me home, and at that moment, I was fine either way.
It was almost disappointing when I felt the chute open and that moment was gone as quickly as it came.
In skydiving as in life. To someone watching from a distance, it might look like I'm free falling out of control and you might even think I've gone off course. But little do you know I'm simply allowing my Savior to carry me and my only job here is to stop thinking, enjoy the ride, and by all means, I will worship...even with a Monkey on my back. And don't be surprised when I land on my feet.
Please take a minute to listen to this song.
Now...stop being afraid and go live. You won't regret it.
My 2 favorite 'Monkey'(s).